*pets Pitas blog* Sorryyyyy...
i babbled on Thursday, July 1, 2004 at 04:47 p.m.

I completely forgot about this thing.
Why does god let terrible things happen to good people? I don't understand it.
Why do I only semi-believe in god when something really bad happens (so I have something to blame everything on) or when I need something?

wow, it's been forever since i've updated
i babbled on Sunday, August 31, 2003 at 05:35 p.m.

LAYER ONE
-- Name: april
-- Birthdate: may 19th
-- Birthplace: arizona...home of too much sagebrush
-- Eye Color: blue
-- Hair Color: i guess now it's strawberry blonde
-- Height: 5'3 or 5'4
-- Righty or Lefty: righty
-- Zodiac Sign: taurus
LAYER TWO
-- Your heritage: german...and i'm guessing some irish because of the red in my hair
-- The shoes you wore today: i wore sandals today
-- Your weakness: alcochol
-- Your fears: not being able to have kids, death
-- Your perfect pizza: deep dish pepperoni
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: go to that modeling thing
-- Your most overused phrase: probably 'fucking hell' or something like that
-- Your thoughts first waking up: something like 'hopefully it's not 1 already...'
-- Your best physical feature: my eyes or my smile
-- Your bedtime: usually i fall asleep around 3 am
-- Your most missed memory: huh? missed memory? how can you miss a memory if you don't remember it
LAYER FOUR
-- Pepsi or Coke: ummm....coke because i don't have it that often
-- McDonald's or Burger King: burger king!
-- Single or Relationship: relationship definitely
-- Adidas or Nike: old school adidas...i hate nike
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: hmmm..nestea i guess
-- Chocolate or vanilla: both
-- Cappuccino or coffee: iced lattes!
-- Smoke: i haven't smoked weed in a long time...well about a month and a half, but still, and i don't smoke cigarettes
-- Cuss: considering what i said for most overused phrase, you figure it out
-- Sing: sometimes in the car when a song i like comes on
-- Take a shower everyday: yeah....
-- Have a crush(es): no i have a boyfriend
-- Like high school: i don't go to high school
-- Want to get married: yeah, when i'm around 19 or so
-- Believe in yourself: most of the time
-- Get motion sickness: when i read in the car or play playstation
-- Think you're attractive: when i have make up on
-- Think you're a health freak: i try to be....but it just doesn't work for me
-- Get along with your parents: i guess...i come and go as a i please pretty much, so it works for me
-- Like thunderstorms: only when i'm with john
LAYER SIX: In the past month...
-- Done a drug: no! go me
-- Had Sex: yeah
-- Made Out: yup
-- Gone on a date: yeah
-- Gone to the mall?: yeah a few times this month
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: i wouldn't even eat A orea, so i don't think so
-- Eaten sushi: hell.no.
-- Been on stage: nope
-- Gone skating: me...skating..? ha
-- Made homemade cookies: yeah! and a cake too....i'm like, the next chef tony
-- Gone skinny dipping: no
-- Dyed your hair: yup, just did yesterday
-- Stolen anything: i don't steal
LAYER SEVEN: Ever..
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: yeah a couple times
-- Been caught "doing something": yup...and we've almost been caught so many times
-- Been called a tease: yeah, only by john though
-- Gotten beaten up: nope
-- Shoplifted: i don't steal, idiot
-- Changed who you were to fit in: not really...that's so dumb
LAYER EIGHT
-- Age you hope to be married: 19/20 or so
-- Numbers and Names of Children: probably 3...named...i don't know i have a lot of names
-- Describe your dream wedding: ohh a nice wedding by the beach....and after we say 'i do' they let a bunch of white doves go (which i heard is a catholic thing, but it's still a nice idea) and...a lot of other stuff but i don't feel like going into detail
-- How do you want to die: in my sleep
-- Where you want to go to college: ummmm...stanford i guess
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: a makeup artist or a shrink or a teacher
-- What country(ies) would you most like to visit: australia and england
LAYER NINE: In a boy/girl..
-- Best eye color? i don't really like blue or green eyes...almost always brown
-- Best hair color? brown or black, i hate blonde guys
-- Short or long hair: short! long hair is gross
-- Height: around 6 foot
-- Best articles of clothing: er...polo t shirts...and um...pants? guys don't have many style choices...and skater shoes...none of that 'thug' shit...
-- Best first date location: just the movies or somewhere simple
-- Best first kiss location: outside...somewhere romantic...just you two..
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: i don't know, not many
-- Number of CDs that I own: like 40
-- Number of piercing: i have my ears pierced 6 times on one side, 4 on the other
-- Number of tattoos: none
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: once or twice
-- Number of scars on your body: ummmm...5 or so? i don't sit around and count my scars all day
Hm...I don't know why only a few of the layer and number things showed up. Oh well.

searches
i babbled on Tuesday, March 18, 2003 at 09:40 p.m.

Weird searches:
crackhead hobo
"fist in my mouth"

colorquiz
i babbled on Sunday, February 16, 2003 at 11:14 p.m.

Existing situation:
Pursues her objectives and her own-self-interest with stubborn determination; refuses to compromise or make concessions.
Stress sources:
The existing situation is disagreeable. Feels lonely and uncertain as she has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and wants to stand out from the rank and file. This sense of isolation magnifies the need into a compelling urge, all the more upsetting to her self-sufficiency because of the restraint she normally imposes on herself. Since she wants to demonstrate the unique quality of her own character, she tries to suppress this need for others and affects an attitude of unconcerned self-reliance to conceal her fear of inadequacy, treating those who criticize her behavior with contempt. However, beneath this assumption of indifference she really longs for the approval and esteem of others.
Restrained characteristics:
Trying to calm down and unwind after a period of over-agitation which has left her listless and devoid of energy. In need of peace and quiet; becomes irritable if this is denied him. Feels rather isolated and alone, but is too reserved to allow herself to form deep attachments. Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense. Conditions are such that she will not let herself become intimately involved without making mental reservations.
Desired objective:
Unwilling to participate and wishes to avoid all forms of stimulation. Has had to put up with too much of a tiring or exhausting nature and now desires protection and noninvolvement.
Actual problem:
The unsatisfied desire to be respected, to stand out from amongst her friends, is causing some anxiety. As a result, normal gregariousness is suppressed and she refuses to allow herself to become involved, or to participate with others in their ordinary activities.
Actual problem #2:
Disappointment at the non-fulfillment of her hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety. She tries to escape from this by withdrawing and protecting herself with an attitude of cautious reserve. Moody and depressed.

fuckin' eskimo
i babbled on Monday, February 10, 2003 at 07:16 p.m.

Will someone please make Good Charlotte, New Found Glory, and Simple Plan SHUT THE FUCK UP? By playing your instruments as shitty as possible, wearing every piece of clothing by Hot Topic, and singing worse than a chipunk does NOT make you punk.
MTV sucks.

lyric
i babbled on Thursday, January 30, 2003 at 07:18 p.m.

"Oh just the scent of you makes me hurt
So how's it you that makes me better"
I love those lyrics.